As I delve into my studies, I feel I am becoming more self-aware. At the end of last week, I noticed I was losing my joy again. I thought to myself...self,you must be tired and need a break. When I stand back and look at the little people I work with and my own little person at home....and just observe them...notice their behaviors, smiles, ear shapes, etc...I suddenly think, my gosh, they are so adorable....so lovely. When I am tired...and just going through the paces to get my chores finished....I lose my joy in working with them...i don't see their cuteness....they might, I dare say even get on my nerves. I am really trying hard to make enough rejuvenation time each day to stay fresh with these little people. It is hard for me because I am a single mother to a great extent....Big Curtis was never around much when we were together. He is a step up guy in a lot of ways, and really takes good care of curt when he can...but he is often gone for work...and really just takes his downtime or friend time whenever. I, on the other hand, am home-base for little curt and. I love it...but I must be careful to pace myself always. Last weekend I was just overwhelmed with catching up with chores after a long week at work.....it was a beautiful autumn day. My son went on a hayride with the neighbor and other children...what a shame i made that choice. Housework and catchup can wait until the evenings during the weekends...curt and i will enjoy these autumn days together from now on, you can be sure. This past Sunday we did catch up with friends at a farm on a beautiful fall day...I feel so refreshed from this weekend...today at work the children are sweet in their cuteness, I am making full eye contact with them all...and they are joyful in my presence as I am able to bring them joy.
I am grateful for this awareness.
Blessings to you
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